anticipation

1. I have literally marked half the classes in my entire course handbook as classes I want to take.

2. "The fireworks begin today. Each diploma is a lighted match, each one of you is a fuse."

3. One Day, All Children...

4. SATA - Study Away Teach Away

5. Peace Corps

6. wwoof

7. Learning guitar

8. Summer roadtrips

I want to move. I want to explore.

you know there's more

"But I don't want comfort. I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger, I want freedom, I want goodness."

little girl

There's awards strewn around my desk, college mail, and more. I'm happy, I'm healthy, I'm living my life. I love so many people, and I think, I hope, they love me in return. What else does someone want for their child?

I'm so sick of not being good enough for the one person who is supposed to love me no matter what. Tell me, what did I do? How did I hurt you so badly that all you want to do is break me down?

My house has never been safe, and its your fault. What else matters when even your mom thinks you're a failure?

rogue

the whole point is, its never who you'd expect.

lifestyle

brain drain 6/1

I want to say something; I know there should be words to describe these feelings, but somehow, I can't find them. I'm growing up, and I'm growing to be more and more confused about who I am, where I'm going, what I want, and why I do what I do. I think this is healthy though; it means I'm thinking.

This is both the longest and shortest week of my life. Friday is the most important thing that has ever happened to me, and yet the least important. Nothing is ever black and white; that's one thing I am still sure of. I am living perfectly in the grey area of uncertainty...and I'm not quite ready to leave it yet.