MINE!

we're going to get through junior year.

Haley says we can!

bring it on, right?

I love you guys.

we'll do it.

PS- the puma suit rocks my world.

some things work

"something to make the trip worthwhile?" "can you leave campus at lunch?"

your voicemail and how I knew you were going to come. you answering saying, "lets do it. I dont care, lets do it.

finally laughing with you, after so long. it makes me worry about you less.

the printed ticket. that big O in my planner.

hella. "i'm crying right now" "I get that like word for word"

throwing grapes.

reading minds over the phone.

your voicemail that let me know you wanted to talk to ME...and you didn't talk to anyone else. your face when I walked away.

rhetoric, how he looked when you stood up...it was so sweet.

my friends make me so happy to be alive.

sisterhood

Sometimes

I wonder

if we'll ever

be

like them.

Plus one.

I wonder it we'll end up like them plus one.

Six of us.

Will we make it, will we still be friends? And college?

Sometimes I wonder.

We're special, you know. We're lucky.

I don't want to wait.

I've been looking forward to this since the last time I saw you guys,

and now its so soon,

its right there,

and I'm terrified.

Will it be the same?

Am I differnet?

Are you?

What if its not everything I've been imagining?

This has to work.

straight up

It's habit, isn't it?

It's what we've all always done.

It's power, isn't it?

It's being even.

It's fear, isn't it?

It's not being able to say it to some one's face.

It's not knowing, isn't it?

It's passive agressive.

and it's everyone, isn't it?

we're all guilty.

its all falling apart

Foolish Pride

today I was listening to these young moms talking about how they had no time, and they always felt guilty, for not spending enough time with their kids, for keeping their dog cooped up, for not having a really clean house, etc.

"Why do I work part time just so I can be home with my kids while they watch TV?"

Maybe I like being young a little more than I thought.

Still, college mail excites me a lot.

day 74

but you've already lost

when you only have

barely enough

to hang on.