whirlpool/Hughes

"Death is a tower

to which the soul ascends

to spend a meditative hour--

that never ends."

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"We have tomorrow

bright before us

like a flame"

in progress

This is my letter to those like me who

unsure, confused, (adults), yearn to know

we brush elbows with life, each day it's own

Soon is my religion, questioned. My politics, questioned.

My education, questioned. My goals questioned, and forever

I will wonder

I'm alive, I'm light, I'm heavy, and sometimes afraid...

Stop. And then I am ready, or am I not?

detonate

"To You

All you who are dreamers, too,

Help me to make

Our world anew.

I reach out my dreams to you."

-Langston Hughes

Joy Luck

"I asked myself, What is true about a person? Would I change in the same way the river changes color but still be the same person? And then I saw the curtains blowing wildly, and outside the rain was falling harder, causing everyone to scurry and shout. I smiled. And then I realized it was the first time I could see the power of the wind. I couldn't see the wind itself, but I could see it carried the water that filled the rivers and shaped the countryside. It caused men to yelp and dance."

brain drain 4/7

7 posts from March, again. March 7. "I'm upset on my birthday." One month ago. Finally.

Franti. Concert night. Perfection. Frustration, confusion, sadness. "I miss listening to Franti and feeling happy." 50 things I miss. The box, one week ago. Finally.

Colleges. "I can't help you...that's something you have to decide yourself." "I'm thrilled...I mean, I got into college. But I can't even tell him about it." "You've never been one to be judged by a piece of paper." Laughing on the phone. Finally.

Visiting. This summer. Freedom, guilt, independence. This year. Fear. Realizations. Finally.

I want to tell you everything about everything, and Finally, I get to. I don't have to be sad when I get excited about something and can't call you and explain it. I don't cry when I hear my favorite songs. I don't understand what changed but I'm alive again, Finally, and its thanks to you.

1/3/2010