Wednesday, April 7, 2010

brain drain 4/7

7 posts from March, again. March 7. "I'm upset on my birthday." One month ago. Finally.

Franti. Concert night. Perfection. Frustration, confusion, sadness. "I miss listening to Franti and feeling happy." 50 things I miss. The box, one week ago. Finally.

Colleges. "I can't help you...that's something you have to decide yourself." "I'm thrilled...I mean, I got into college. But I can't even tell him about it." "You've never been one to be judged by a piece of paper." Laughing on the phone. Finally.

Visiting. This summer. Freedom, guilt, independence. This year. Fear. Realizations. Finally.



I want to tell you everything about everything, and Finally, I get to. I don't have to be sad when I get excited about something and can't call you and explain it. I don't cry when I hear my favorite songs. I don't understand what changed but I'm alive again, Finally, and its thanks to you.

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