"Messy is beautiful."

How do you know when it's right? How do you know when it's wrong?

Why didn't you want to stay together? Why did you change your mind?

What did you promise each other? Did you think you could keep that promise? Did you?

Did you stay together because of us, or do you still love each other?

Would you do things differently if you could? Couldn't you?

Can you define "forever"?




There are so many questions that I'm just not allowed to ask.

Jesse

I want to tell you that it's all going to be alright.
I want to promise that I know what I'm doing and I won't hurt you. I can't.


I feel like I've been doing this all wrong for far too long - I'm not sure how it started, though, which makes it hard to know where it's going.

I'm claustrophobic. I need air and open space. I need advice that no one can give. I need to fix myself before I break everything.

Cliche

"Are you ok?"

"Death is a challenge. It tells us not to waste time, and it reminds us to tell each other right now that we love each other."

You're great.

Upper East Side

"The trunk is filled with records, and books and tears and clothes.

I'm smiling on the surface, but I'm scared as hell below..."

Drive darling, drive darling, drive.

Hey. Whoa.

"Don't go slow - you'll miss all the things you need"

Sometimes I wish that my brain would move as quickly as other peoples' do, and I could stop digging so deeply into every thought. But then I wonder - what do people do with all the extra time that I spend thinking each thing over so many times?

"I have always struggled with vulnerability. I like being strong; I've always had to be strong, and I have associated vulnerability with weakness for as long as I can remember. Of course in everyday life, it would be difficult for people to know this. I am seen as someone who is quite open and outgoing, at least to the extent that my demeanor is not mistaken for being a cold, unapproachable bitch. After all, I'm also seen as someone who is known for being blunt; the quintessential, "what you see is what you get" person.

Perhaps it's through writing, perhaps it's through getting older, but ultimately I've realized that I'm a really hard person to get to know. And very few people know even the half of it. I'm guarded and I don't break easily; no matter how close I am to people, I know that most of them are still kept at a distance that is comfortable, a distance that won't leave me exposed. I do not like to be vulnerable."

Sometimes I just want to go home.