Hey. Whoa.

"Don't go slow - you'll miss all the things you need"

Sometimes I wish that my brain would move as quickly as other peoples' do, and I could stop digging so deeply into every thought. But then I wonder - what do people do with all the extra time that I spend thinking each thing over so many times?

"I have always struggled with vulnerability. I like being strong; I've always had to be strong, and I have associated vulnerability with weakness for as long as I can remember. Of course in everyday life, it would be difficult for people to know this. I am seen as someone who is quite open and outgoing, at least to the extent that my demeanor is not mistaken for being a cold, unapproachable bitch. After all, I'm also seen as someone who is known for being blunt; the quintessential, "what you see is what you get" person.

Perhaps it's through writing, perhaps it's through getting older, but ultimately I've realized that I'm a really hard person to get to know. And very few people know even the half of it. I'm guarded and I don't break easily; no matter how close I am to people, I know that most of them are still kept at a distance that is comfortable, a distance that won't leave me exposed. I do not like to be vulnerable."

Sometimes I just want to go home.