now,

This is stupid.

I have posted 2 (make that 3 now?) blogs tonight and this is stupid. I am not dying.

I am lucky that I had what I had. I am SO lucky. And I still have my best friend, just because I can't kiss him anymore doesn't mean he's not my best friend. And there's other people who I really want to get to know.

So.

I'll just stop moping now. And I'll stop watching stupid things where the girl is sad and the guy goes back and whabam everything is alright! Because guess what, that's not happening. I'm not living in a movie, or in a TV show, or in anything scripted for that matter. My life may be cliche, but its not scripted, and I'm leaving tomorrow, I AM LEAVING, and I am going for six weeks, and when I come back, I am moved on completely, and I can finally commit fully to other things that I couldn't do anything about before.

Fin. Goodnight.